” I love movies about “The Big Moment” – the game or the performance or the wedding day or the record deal, the stories that split time with that key event, and everything is reframed, before it and after it, because it has changed everything. I have always wanted this movie-worthy event, something that will change everything and grab me out of this waiting game into the whirlwind in front of me. I cry and cry at these movies, because I am still waiting for my own big moment. I had visions of life as an adventure, a thing to be celebrated and experienced, but all I was doing was going to work and coming home, and that wasn’t what it looked like in the movies.” – Cold Tangerines, On Waiting
When Harry Met Sally - one of my favorite “big moment” movies
There was a lot more to this chapter that really got my attention, but I thought the piece that I picked was one that is most relatable. I honestly felt like when I read this chapter, On Waiting, that someone had taken my thoughts and put it on paper in a very eloquent yet understandable way. It was what I have been thinking for years, yet never knew how to put into words. or maybe I never really tried to because I knew that facing the reality of this whole waiting game is that I am essentially unsatisfied, and I have never wanted myself to be that not content, searching-for-more person. Truthfully though, this chapter made me realize that if we don’t stop waiting we may only continue to let life pass us by. I already foresee myself 30, 40, 50 years from now thinking how amazing life was at 23- the people that surround me, my family, my faith…why would I want to wait until then to realize it. I’m trying to live in the moment and not worry so much about when or if that “Big Moment” will ever come.
